WHY?!

Why does suicide seem my only way?
Each day it takes all I can just to
survive.
I'm living a life full of lies,
Cutting seems to only make it worse,
I live in sweet remorse, Music used to help,
Now it only adds to my questionable
thoughts of suicide,
But, Do I really need to ask, if I shall
live or die?
Shouldn't I have at least enough common sense to figure out why?
Why does suicide seem my only way?

JCMT